after the meeting with my old classmate, i walk slowly to my bed. re-thinking again and again what type of curse do god will give me for tomorrow. i mean, does it will end or it will keep going over and over again? i taste the 'ains' as much as i can bear, and afraid it will never stop. does this really going to hunt me for the rest of my live till apocalypse? i cant take it. i try to plan on suicide, but it still a really pain in ass on doing that stupid solving. i have a little sister and i love her, and also my family, but why me as a brother have to burden my self to this God great pain ass test? why me GOD? u hate me? so, its fine on me seem u made me to hell right? that goes on u. i just being made to fill ur full crap hell. well, that i will say, THANKS A LOT, GOD. as day by day, time passes over me, i pray to be dead. its pain to live in this ass shit world. people judge book on its cover, so do people judge me on my face. yeah, thanks a lot your son of who bitch. send my hell regard to ur bitch's wombs. yeah this is may be the result of mine hyper ultimate never die of tension. shit, i will kill u bitch! u thinks u are so good and try to put blame on other? u are wrong because u are bitch! and thanks GOD that i will never marry with bitch who think they are fucking good! go to extreme most shit hell with your like. never meet me at any hell level, bitch! i wish im God, then i will smite them one by one. but, thanks again GOD, i am human. huh, after write this stupid never ending phrase, i feel my tension level had drop. thanks again GOD. i love You, my sisters, my family, my friends mho concern on me, my money, my games, my hair, my rubbish like artworks, my ass, my thinking, my brain, my theories. oh, thats the end. want to go to smite bitches. see ya, o~ho~